tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5138426962668120308.post8605102139842593169..comments2023-07-15T01:30:35.225-07:00Comments on The Stripping Warrior: LettersCLARK JOHNSENhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02893018646857280001noreply@blogger.comBlogger7125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5138426962668120308.post-28037535031839268782008-08-23T01:36:00.000-07:002008-08-23T01:36:00.000-07:00I just wanted to say that your YouTube videos and ...I just wanted to say that your YouTube videos and blog have really helped me. I just watched all of the videos, and read a few posts in your blog (yes, in one day). I am writing in this post because you made a reference in one of your videos, I believe, to the letters that your mom wrote to you. I had to read your blog after you mentioned them. Maybe I am drawn to your videos/posts because I too have been through suicidal thoughts of "If this plane were to go down today, I wouldn't be too sad", or maybe its just your handsome-ness and charisma. Being a gay mormon who came out around the same time you did (I came out when I was 18) also drew me to you. I felt that we share a lot in common in these respects. Oh, and in your YouTube video, you reference Gary Zukav. I believe you were citing 'The Heart of the Soul', or 'The Seat of the Soul'? I have been impacted by these books as well, and happened to create a club about them a while back at my school. Anyhow, I just thought that maybe I could somehow form a friendship with you. I know you have so articulated what I have been going through, and described a lot of how I view the world. This is all after I went online to affirmation today on a whim; just because. I didn't expect to find this wealth of information coming from the form of video. So to that end, my hats off to ya. I don't know if you can respond back to me, but I would love to hear back. <BR/><BR/>Shaun, AKA GrawlerAnonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09632894344129986903noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5138426962668120308.post-28401349583464496262008-02-09T10:37:00.000-08:002008-02-09T10:37:00.000-08:00Here she is again--cl2.Your posts are really MOVIN...Here she is again--cl2.<BR/><BR/>Your posts are really MOVING to me. <BR/><BR/>My daughter is doing the same things to me that your mother is doing to you and I'm not gay. She doesn't even do it to her gay father. Actually, she thinks I need to be mormon so I can still "save the celestial marriage" and have us grow old together.<BR/><BR/>She sees me cry (as I am in a relationship with the love of my life--I met 30 years ago). It is SCARY to allow myself to trust again. I've also been through some other issues. I'm actually waking up from a long self-imposed sleep of not allowing myself to FEEL. She knows I am sexually active with my boyfriend. I've run my life off in a ditch. She can't see the strides I've made (such as coming to peace over my marriage, etc.), she can only see I'M A SINNER and I need to come back to the fold. <BR/><BR/>I don't know how to help you with this one with your mother. I do know the pain it must cause because I sacrificed so much to raise my daughter and she can't be happy for me--that I'm FINALLY where I've searched and worked so long to be.<BR/><BR/>My exmo therapist (he has issues with his mother over his exmo status) told me that things that are of value take work. Your mother isn't seeing that about your relationship. He says most people get out when things get tough--that most people life should be just a good time. Your mother and my daughter are CHOOSING to see only the bad--and not allowing that when we are awakening to our own TRUTH, that it can be very painful at times--life-giving at other times--but they are choosing to see only the bad. <BR/><BR/>I am more alive than I've been in all my life, but I'm more scared than I have ever been . . . <BR/><BR/>I do believe that if she loves you as much as I see that she does, she will someday come to the same conclusions I did about my ex (see my other posts). She is also discounting Carolyn Pearson's own experience. Has she read "Good-Bye, I Love You?" <BR/><BR/>You might have her read my story and my comments on here (as my story is incomplete on wildflowers).<BR/><BR/>Colleencl2https://www.blogger.com/profile/14670444314880383058noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5138426962668120308.post-67722553848682884612008-01-20T12:25:00.000-08:002008-01-20T12:25:00.000-08:00Just wanted you to know that I love you and respec...Just wanted you to know that I love you and respect you so much!! You are a wonderful, beautiful person.<BR/>Much love to you!!!Bethanyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16436195945535099713noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5138426962668120308.post-67730295318795583922008-01-17T21:53:00.000-08:002008-01-17T21:53:00.000-08:00I think as much as we are pulled apart between the...I think as much as we are pulled apart between the church and our homosexuality, I think she is experiencing a similar division where her love for you and her love of God and the gospel seem in a fierce conflict. <BR/><BR/>As it took a long time for you to resolve your dilemma, it may take her a long time too.One of So Manyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15079854483497796201noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5138426962668120308.post-51750127971011835232008-01-16T17:10:00.000-08:002008-01-16T17:10:00.000-08:00P.S. I had another thought. What is your mom readi...P.S. I had another thought. What is your mom reading? There's a tremendous amount of unhelpful, misleading information out there, mostly published by people with some sort of religious ax to grind. This stuff can be very dispiriting.<BR/><BR/>Has your mom actually read Carol Lynn's book? If so, what did she think? Is she open to reading books that you might suggest? If so, the <A HREF="http://www.pflag.org/Reader_s_Corner.readers.0.html" REL="nofollow">PFLAG list of recommended titles</A> is a good starting point.MoHoHawaiihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15086670779804942122noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5138426962668120308.post-18858085985131924152008-01-16T16:02:00.000-08:002008-01-16T16:02:00.000-08:00She sounds angry. This just seems to leak out indi...She sounds angry. This just seems to leak out indirectly from what you've written. For example, her offer to tell you "what she really thinks of you and your lifestyle" sounds aggressive to my ear.<BR/><BR/>Maybe this is just the phase she's going through in the process of acceptance (<A HREF="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/K%C3%BCbler-Ross_model" REL="nofollow">Kubler-Ross</A>, etc.)<BR/><BR/>I don't really have any advice except to persevere, with love. Maybe you can build closer ties with your siblings and friends while you wait for your mom to come around. In the meantime you can live your life with integrity, courage and love.<BR/><BR/>As always, best of luck to you.MoHoHawaiihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15086670779804942122noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5138426962668120308.post-78722557796291946482008-01-16T13:50:00.000-08:002008-01-16T13:50:00.000-08:00Those letters seemed pretty intense, Clark.It is h...Those letters seemed pretty intense, Clark.<BR/><BR/>It is hard for me to think of advice. You're Mom has known about your situation for years... but it seems like she feels like she has to choose between religion and her son's views. I am guessing that that is a fighting battle for her inside. <BR/><BR/>That's probably how it shouldn't be, of course. But when it comes to Mormonism and homosexuality, things get muddy. <BR/><BR/>From what I get out of it, she just feels like she has to give up some of her religious principles in order to accept you. Maybe she feels like she has to approve of your lifestyle.<BR/><BR/>This kind of puts a bit of fear of me coming out to my parents. Being raised LDS, I know it will be tough on them.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01226208429329312021noreply@blogger.com